The Trip

With the slightest remains of a hangover and a nauseous stomach, we braved one last January evening in New York City. The snow was falling outside and our faces were frozen. We'd just completed a successful date profiling at a local bar when we felt it safe to allow her sister to have dinner with the young man. He was harmless, a web engineer, 35 and a heart of gold. Harmless and hopeless at the same time. We both smiled at each other and said "This will last about 10 minutes." We braved the outdoors and trekked through my favorite part of New York's Village, Stanton and Allen. We slid down the icy sidewalk looking for a warm meal. We passed by wine bars and local clubs focused on filling our bellies with a warm meal. I don't remember scouring too many menus before we stumbled through a tiny door, blindly drowning into a giant red velvet drape. As we reached light, we found ourselves in a quaint Italian restaurant called Frankies. According to the menu, it was the oldest Italian restaurant in the Village. We devoured our meal, drank incredible wine and stared at one another for two hours. I think I ate short ribs, and she enjoyed ravioli. It didn't really matter, it was our first trip together and we could finally enjoy freedom from it all. It was the first time we put it all away and just focused on each other. I think it was the first time we truly realized how in love we were with one another. She looked amazing, with her giant green orbs staring through me. They pierced my heart and mesmerized me.

Our table was situated right by the door, so each time a new diner passed through the red drape, a zero degree draft would burst through and glaze our faces. Fortunately our table was only about 24 inches across in diameter, so as the wind blew, our hands, then arms, then noses rubbed closer to each other. By the end of the evening our only impediment from a full embrace was a 2 foot piece of pine that held an empty bottle of wine and two red stained glasses. I'd never felt this emotion, it wasn't just love, it was a feeling of life. A life restored from the dead and resurrected for one final dance before it was all to end. I felt a sense of desperation as I knew this was one of those moments that I should pause and record.

The painted bricks to her left, the brown and orange scarf in her hair, the white bracelet, her laugh, the red drape and the music. It was as if a soundtrack was playing to this very scene. I actually stopped her and asked "What song is this, I've never heard it and it's amazing?" She looked at me and said, "I have no clue, let's ask." So as our waiter approached we both looked at him and in unison asked, "What song is this?" He had no clue, but checked with the owner, came back and said, "It's the owner's iPod playing and it's a band called Midlake." He pronounced it Midlak-E...So we copied accordingly and called the band by the same name. Later that year, at SXSW, we embarrassingly discovered the band preferred to be called Mid-Lake, like it looks. He wrote it down on a Frankie's comment card, I folded it and placed it in my pocket. The romance of the evening continued on and we braved the bitter chill of New York City in January. Our faces frozen the winter breeze, were only warmed by the evening's last kiss. She buried herself into my newly acquired Marc Jacobs jacket and I carried her home, back to the warmth of our giant bed.

As the evening closed, I undressed and put on a giant sweatshirt and sweatpants, she the same. I plopped down on the bed and noticed a small card open on the ground. I bent over, grabbed it and read the simple word...Midlake. I had to hear the song again. To relive the evening's joy. I jumped out of bed, snatched my laptop from it's bag and plugged it in. iTunes connected automatically through the hotel's Wi-Fi connection. I typed Midlake into the search field and five albums appeared. I had no idea which one it was so I clicked on the most recent release The Trials of Van Occupanther.

The album's covered displayed two men, one sitting the other standing in the woods. They looked as if they were forced to dress up to impress their girlfriends at bad Shakespearian Renaissance Festival. Never-the-less, I moved on from the cover and played the first track. It was Roscoe, the song playing at our dinner and it was amazing. A guitar riff stolen from Lindsey Buckingham and a vocal never before heard. The lyrics were referring to a villager who ventured to the outside world, discovering what the world had to offer. Upon his return he couldn't reconnect with his past. As if the present poisoned his past. I listened intently as he spoke of 1891 and his fear of change, but the inevitable outcome of growth. He was forever changed and could never go back. He crossed that line and once you do so, your life will never be the same. He spoke of sadness only to be replaced by the joy of moving on. It spoke to my heart as I stroked her hair as she slept. Her auburn locks draping over my leg and my hand caressing her curls. I looked down and saw my present, as my past would slowly being devoured.

Track 2, Bandits, was a marvelous description of life anew. It's amazing how human nature perpetuates the same patterns whether you're living in today's iPod, Wi-Fi world or in 1891, when your cabin was robbed and you're left with only a fox and an apple. I felt as if I was left in the same predicament. My past was now gone and I was sitting here with my new fox on my leg and an apple...iPod that is. I was forced to start over, though I had already come so far, I had chosen this path for my happiness. Bandits quoted:

Did you ever want to be overrun by bandits;
to hand over all of your things and start over new?
while we were out hunting for food
our house was being robbed
I caught an apple and she caught a fox
so I caught a rabbit but she caught an ox

so upon our return, we found everything gone
which for us was no loss
and we started over

It's amazing where you discover that album you've never heard. For me, during this time of life, I discovered them amongst my deepest and most love inspiring moments. I lay in this hotel bed, with a set of headphones blaring and the love of my life sleeping on my chest. It was at that moment when Track 8 came on...We Gathered in Spring. Ironically, I begged for spring in this chilly New York moment. The song's aching lullaby and the 70s driven organ were all overshadowed by the acoustic guitar. This song connected with me like no other....

I'm tired of being here
On this hill
Where I'm sure to find my last meal
No-one lives to be three hundred years

The sadness of the inevitable and the truth that yes this could be where you eat your last meal, on this hill. I was hoping that this was the first track of the album and not the last. The hopeful discovery of life in Roscoe and the rebirth of life on Bandits were only swallowed by the sadness of Spring. It's almost as if he the first half of the album was a dream only to be drowned by the reality of spring gathering and life's inevitability of the choices you may be permanently affixed to. I found this album liberating and it spoke to me like no other.

I placed my head on the pillow next to hers and whispered into her ear, "There is no hill, I have my apple and you are my fox."

Morrison

The One That Liberated Me

Okay so I said that I would write, but I didn't say how often. So I apologize for the long delay. I also mentioned that I would write about the record that got me laid, but it seems so trite and childish. Something that Billy Idol would say if asked why he covered Mony Mony, "Because you bloody ass, it's the song that I played the first time I shagged a lady." Honestly, I don't want to sound that way, because music penetrates me so much deeper than it representing some momentary reflection in my past. I listen to music so I can feel something, deeply feel something. I want music to make me cry, which these days, every song makes me cry. I want it to dive deep into my heart, launch a nuclear time bomb, then I want it to explode as I am hearing the singer wail his fucking heart out. When the song ends, I want it again and again again. It's like a fucking drug and when you finally have built up a wall of tolerance, after 1000000 listens, you move on to the next one.



The first album I am going to write about is Veneer by Jose Gonzalez. It flows like the summer ocean under a small sailboat, where two lovers enjoy the freedom of love without the worries of the outside world. They reflect on the past, the future, the good times and the bad, on God and it all ends with a tragic reflection that this would be the last time they would spend together


.... The sun went down
And with it the love we found
That's the way things are sometimes
Most of the time

It's hopeful and tragic all at the same time. I can remember every moment related to this record. The actual date I listened to it, the actual moment I heard Heartbeats and who I was staring at, and the actual life changing event that resulted in this album being my liberation.

I received it on my desk from our label sales rep. It was buried under a bunch of punk and SKA garbage, the new Of Montreal and a few other SubPop doodads. I took the stack home with me that night, like I always do. I plopped them into my computer and proceeded to rip them into iTunes. I dragged them onto my iPod and thought nothing of it. The next morning, June 7th of 2006, I had to jump on a plane to LA for some label meetings and other work obligations. I got to the airport early and sat down with my iPod. I scrolled down to my "Recent Shit" playlist and got to Jose Gonzalez. I played track one, Slow Moves, simple, soft and revealing. It immediately pulled me in. I could hear the pain in his heart. The struggle he possessed as he waded through honesty and lies. The Swedish born sensitivity swept through my iPod headphones captured me. The next track, Remain, flowed well from the first track and layered a simple Spanish flamenco sound that exposed his Argentinian heritage. She stained his heart, a bloodstain that he could wash away...wow that line always gets me. That lyric continued into the next track Lovestain. At that point I put away my iPod and boarded the plane. I spent the next hour talking to my staff, landed, jumped in a rental car and headed off to my meetings. Not knowing that the next track on this magnificent album would liberate and expose me to the perfection of song writing.

Heartbeats
One night to be confused
one night to speed up truth
we had our promise paid
four hands and then away

both under influence
we had divine scent
to know what to say
mind is a razorblade

to call for hands of above
to lean on
wouldn't be good enough
for me, no

one night of magic rush
the start a simple touch
one night to push and scream
and then relief

ten days of perfect hues
the colors red and blue
we had a promise paid
we were in love

to call for hands of above
to lean on
wouldn't be good enough
for me, no

to call for hands of above
to lean on
wouldn't be good enough

and you, you knew the hand of the devil
and you, kept us awake with wolves' teeth
sharing different heartbeats
in one night

to call for hands of above
to lean on
wouldn't be good enough
for me, no

to call for hands of above
to lean on
wouldn't be good enough
for me, no

Just reading those lyrics makes me cry. It was this song that was playing as I kissed the woman who would liberate me. The song so perfectly expresses exactly what I was about to encounter in my life. It's not often that music can truly be the forecasting soundtrack of your life. It exposed me and brought her into my life. The power of a passionate night can last a lifetime. Jose so perfectly defines what it means to falls in love via passion. Knowing full well that by taking that first step you can never turn back. Your past will forever be tattooed by this memory. The feeling is so overwhelming that you can't deny it, and you know, that not even God can give you more, but only her. The one that you love. Nothing ever replaces that moment, that moment when your lips meet for the very first time. Under the perfect circumstances, this song comes on, not planned, and your life is forever shaken by her perfection. This song, nicely tucked away at track 4, a bleeding, desperate heart is perfectly anchored by his plea for God's help. To relieve him of this pain and longing. Crosses, is God speaking to him while he writhes his bed. The life of the city bustling around him, God tells him everything will be alright. But when you're healing a broken heart, not even God, who speaks to you directly, can relieve you of that pain. Fucking powerful and beautiful.

Now I could go on and describe the other 6 tracks, but why. Go buy the Goddamn album and listen to it yourself. The first five songs are so utterly beautiful that you have no reason to stop it. Let it play and you make your own assessment. I assure you...if you've ever loved and longed. Ever been 348 miles away from the one you love, but can't be with them. You'll understand this record.

My final parting moment from this album happened tonight. I was vigorously working away when I noticed on SFGate.com that Jose Gonzalez was playing at the Great American Music Hall. I texted my love and asked her to jump on a plane to attend with me. The time ticked and I knew she would have a hard time making it. I ended up going to the show with some random worker bees. People I literally have no emotional attachment to and frankly I will never feel anything for these people. I knew I made a grave mistake by going with them, but I couldn't do it by myself. I knew I would miss her way too much and I would start crying over a warm beer looking pathetic and lonely. So I encouraged these surrogate friends to come with me. Jose came on to the stage and he plucked that first note...Heartbeats...damn it, and I was with these schlubs. I took off and spiraled through the crowd. I had to get closer to the back door, to see if maybe, just maybe she would come sauntering in looking for me. I knew full well that a trip from LA to SF in less than three hours was impossible, but my heart hoped. The song ended and I was left with a crowd of geeks and my warm beer. My only suggestion....when an artist devours your heart, never see him without your lover by your side.

My favorite album

Dear Johnny Appleseed,

I have a confession, yes I confess that I don't buy CDs. Why, because there is no reason. I own over 8500 of them and they sit in their pristine plastic cases gathering dust as I ignore them day in and day out. It's like that old dog on the porch, he was the cutest puppy ever, now he's a nuisance. A giant space filler and a constant ankle twisting hazard. You remember his golden years, the love and emotion you felt the first time he chased a ball, licked your face or when he slept by your side. Now you just want him to go to sleep...forever. My CDs elicit the same feeling. I remember where I bought ever single one of them. The feeling I got when I peeled back that security tape and the first moment when I heard the riff, the drum beat or the vocal melody. Now I want them gone, away from from me, I just want them on my external hard drive. Each time I move, I want to leave them all behind, but for whatever reason I can't. I still hold on to them and pray that one morning when I wake up, my tiny little house elf will have ripped all of my CDs and they are safely placed on eBay as a "Mystery collection of over 7500 CDs," I would keep 1000 of my favorites. Unlike that dog, I would keep a portion. What would I keep and why? That is the reason for my blog. I'll spend time going through these gems, hoping that you find the same love that I have in each of them. My other hope is that you run out to your local record store, no not Best Buy, Circuit City, Wal-Mart or Fry's. I want you to go to Rasputin's, Ameoba, Music Millenium, R5 Records, Twist and Shout, Streetlight Records, Electric Fetus, or any other local retailer. I honestly don't care if you have to spend an extra $5, these records are worth it. I promise. You may already have them, you may not, at least I cared enough to publish my list.

Coming this week: The One that Got me Laid

Sincerely

Morisson